You've Lost That Lovin Feeling OOOOOH That Lovin Feelin

I have a few random things I want to say before I get to the nitty gritty.
1. When I'm going #2 I sometimes sing "Taking Care of Business" and it cracks me up every time, without fail.
2. I'm thankful for my friends that care about me and love on me.
3. I love the movie Top Gun. I just finished watching it actually. My mom met the guy who is the lead guitarist for the band Berlin who plays the song "Take My Breath Away" in that movie. She meets cool people all the time.


Nitty Gritty:
I want to be a Navy Pilot. That's the way it is. And before you say "well you just saw Top Gun and thought it would be cool"..actually no. I didn't even know what Top Gun was until like September [and I decided around March]. When someone would ask me what I wanted to do and I told them "BE A NAVY PILOT!' people would say "yea like Maverick in Top Gun" and I'd smile and nod...completely clueless.


Why do I want to fly then? I have absolutely no idea. I think it would be something exciting and completely different from anything I've ever known. Well I KNOW it would be different lol. I want to be the best at something, why not be the best at being a fighter pilot?


The devil has really been trying to discourage me on this subject lately and it's getting on my nerves. The other night I was reading this blog thing of a man who is an Officer Recruiter [I've had it emailed to myself for a few months now, I don't remember where I found it] and he was talking about how recruiters are busy blah blah blah and he listed off things they're doing and one of them was "crushing the dreams of Top Gun wannabe's (just like we were) because they have a 2.7 in medieval french literature."
..I'll have a degree in music when I graduate...
He went on to talk about how competitive it is; you have to be "competetive with high GPA, Leadership activities, sports, flight time and a high ASTB score, you will merit more attention." Well, alright. I'm not going to have any flight time..I played softball in middle school, I don't really have any leadership activities, and I definitely won't have a 4.0...
"great..I'm never gonna be a pilot." That's what's going through my head.
He also mentioned that there's not a huge need for pilots in the Navy...
THEN on another one of his blogs it was talking about how you should apply for OCS [officer candidacy school] at least 12 months before you graduate from college to give ample time for paperwork and such to go through the system...
"GREAT..now I'll be stuck at home trying to find a job until my paperwork goes through..I DON'T WANT TO BE AT HOME" [no offense mom, but I don't want to end up being stuck there for the rest of my life, ya dig?]


So..now all of these little seeds of discouragement are in my head and I KNOW that God's Will will be done in my life..there's no doubt about it but it's just irritating.


I'd appreciate your prayer..for the right things to say to the recruiter and that maybe they won't have a lot of applicants right now and my paperwork will fly right through and I can go to OCS in August.


I know this is what God wants for my life..if it's not then..well I guess I'm kind of screwed..for lack of a better term. I'll have a degree I can do nothing with..but I'll have EXCELLENT dogsitting skills...


I don't want discouragement...plus..why would the devil mess with me if I was completely out of God's will..someone tell him to stop immediately. Just leave me alone.


Thanks for reading. :)