Evaluations.

I've been thinking about writing this blog for a long time. 
Well not THIS blog..a blog..any blog. I feel like I've kind of neglected it.
I have so many thoughts racing through my mind....ones I want to say, ones I shouldn't say and ones I need to say. It's just hard separating them all out. 


I'm going to try though..for all of you. :)


First I must start out saying that the chair I'm sitting in is driving me NUTS. It's a huge computer chair that's made of a leather-like material..whether it's real leather or not, I'm not sure. Anyway, right where my knees are (my naked knees because I'm wearing shorts) up against where it's cracking and it ITCHES. Erg. Simple solution: put on pants..but then I get hot and I'm even more uncomfortable. This is a no-win situation. 


I got news THERE IS THE BIGGEST CAMEL CRICKET EVER CRAWLING ACROSS THE FLOOR RIGHT NOW..I HAVE TO KILL IT..BE RIGHT BACK...well..that mission was unsuccessful. He jumped under a thing where I can't reach him...eeeewww I hope he doesn't get in my bed. I would CRY! For those of you who don't know what a camel cricket is..check it out HERE these things are ICKY...and apparently they bite. As I was typing in "camel cricket" in the search bar.."camel cricket bite" popped up. Oh someone save me. They jump HIGH..like up to my waist (I'm 5 feet 6 inches tall. I have short legs and a long torso) YUCK YUCK YUCK. I'm pretty sure I can hear him moving around but I can't see him and it's wigging me out.


Ok I'll try to proceed at an acceptable volume from here on out. I got news today that I will not be taking my Navy test next Tuesday as scheduled. My recruiter said that the boards will not be meeting in April so there's no need to rush. They'll be meeting in September instead. Which has left me with a myriad of feelings. I'll try to sort them out to make it easier on you all. 
1. Yes, this is a blessing because I'll have more time to study..about 5 more months..
2. I have to get a summer job...I'm not fond of searching for jobs. My aunt is supposed to be talking to my uncle tonight about possibly working in his bike shop over the summer. This would be SUPER cool because it's in one of my FAVORITE cities! And it would eliminate the job searching ordeal, also they're fun!
3. I feel like with 5 months to study, I'll probably put it off until the last minute..I don't want to do that.
4. I can now focus solely on school work and recital stuff and worry about the Navy after school is finished. (this will be best for EVERYONE..)
I think these are the only feelings I have on this subject..if any more arise I'll be sure to let you know.


I've been doing a lot of thinking lately...I feel like I'm going to "end up" like my grandfather. He's a jack of all trades. He's done everything and I think that's so cool! I wouldn't mind being like him at all. :) This grandfather also had surgery yesterday, well now the day before yesterday...anyway. He's doing well from what I've heard, but he could still use your prayers.


I'm just going to write it out loud...someday, I'd like my world to revolve around ME and not everyone else. There. I said it. I don't care what you think of me for it. Think what you like. I want people to care about what I have to say. I want them to respond to my texts about things I care about and not just choose what topics they want to talk about. That's rude. I never ignore a text..not forever at least. It doesn't matter if they're talking about something I care about or not..I always reply even if it's hours later. I expect the same courtesy from my friends. If you happen to not want to talk about what I have to say..then speak up..don't just ignore me. I haven't done anything to you to deserve being ignored.


Today I also bought some stuff to fix my truck and I just convinced one of my friends that the most eventful part of my day was when my truck blew up. :) Heheheh. It didn't. I just asked a friend to come over and assist me in removing my fuel filter. It had been on there for a LOOOOONG time and I didn't want to break anything. He's a really good guy and he'll make someone a great husband someday. Yea, I told him that..that was something that probably should have stayed in my head but it just flowed right out my mouth hahah. Oh well. He just said "yea...if I ever get married" I have full faith that he will. He's a great guy. In fact, I wouldn't mind if my sister married him! hahaha.


I'm reading a book about Charles Lindbergh for one of my classes...it's not the most entertaining but it's alright. He said this really cool quote. I wrote it down. And now I'm going to type it for everyone to see!

"I've learned not to trust people who are inaccurate...in my profession life itself depends on accuracy"

This is so beyond true. In case you didn't know, he was a pilot. I'm going to be a pilot. This quote just resonates with me. It's so real. I can't describe it beyond that..just real and true.

I have fabulous friends. You know who you are. 

My recital is right around the corner! And when I say "right" I mean RIGHT. It's 15 days from today (Friday). That's so close! I have my dress! Sort of...It's done being made. There are still a couple alterations that need to be made but it's GORGEOUS! The woman who made it is such a blessing! I can't wait to wear it!! I love getting dressed up and looking pretty. It just makes me feel good inside!

I feel like I should make a facebook event about it...meh. I don't feel like it tonight...for the recital..not the feeling pretty lol

I love my family. My mom. I love her. Sometimes we're so much alike that we butt heads but it's ok. :)

I love my dad. He's so laid back...I wish I was more like that lol.

And my sister. She's a geek but I love her.

One last thing. I've recently discovered people who pretend to be my friend in one place and then they're all the sudden not when I'm gone. Don't be that person. If we're friends that means I have a genuine interest in your life and it hurts to hear that you don't care about me or my feelings because I'm not around. If you don't want to be my friend then don't be. Sure, it'll hurt but I'd rather you leave now and cause the least amount of damage. *Note, the person this is directed to probably won't be reading this but if you thought I was talking about you then maybe you should re-evaluate our friendship.*

I know I had more to say but I've forgotten most of it..probably because it's too late to be up blogging.

Goodnight all. 

Sorry for the heavy blog lol..next time maybe I'll make it more light hearted.

Random Find.

So I asked one of my favorite teachers to write a character reference for me to give to the Navy.
She agreed and said she'd need a resume to accompany the paperwork. 
I didn't even remember the last time I wrote a resume! Lol...
So I was searching everywhere on my laptop that I could have possibly saved it. 
No luck. 
BUT in searching, I found an essay that I wrote for a scholarship last semester and I wanted to share it with you all.  
Here it is.

My freshman year in high school I entered a contest to have a walk-on role on one of my favorite television shows. It was a contest sponsored by John Lennon. One of the choices to enter was to write a song about the American Dream and how it’s changed. This is what I wrote:

American Dreams just aren’t what they seem

Kids growing too fast

People running from their past

Babies having babies

Drive by shootings

What has this world come to?

Chorus

There’s no prayer in school

To smoke is to be cool

No dreams of being teachers

No dreams of being leaders

Children getting beat

Yet they take the heat

For something they didn’t do

Whatever happened to the Golden Rule?

Kids bringing guns to school

Smoking weed, it’s the thing to do

Go to a party, get high,

Never think twice about saying good-bye

American Dreams just aren’t what they seem

What has this world come to?

I didn’t win the contest, now that I read it, my song wasn’t all that good. But I think it gets the point across. The American Dream has changed so much just in the last century. Young people wanted to grow up and do something with their lives, change the world, make a difference. Now they’re content to sit at home jobless. I’m not sure that I can say America has a dream any longer. That’s a sad statement to make but I think it’s the truth.

When I hear young people talk, it’s about drugs, parties and having babies.  I overheard a conversation the other day between two 7^th graders talking about how they wanted to have a baby with such and such guy. In that same conversation they talked about their friends getting drunk and smoking. If this is the kind of lifestyle future generations have to look forward to, America is in for a treat. Soon we’ll have no one working and everyone will be on welfare with illegitimate children.

The streets of any big city are littered with gangs and violence. Young boys, and sometimes girls, get involved with the wrong crowd and before they know it they’re robbing convenience stores and doing drive-by shootings. It’s very rare that anyone in that situation can get out, they have nothing to look forward to in life.

To summarize, I think America has lost its ability to dream, or should I say to make their dreams reality. There are plenty of dreamers out there who wish for a better life but aren’t serious enough to do anything about it. The American Dream hasn’t been what it used to be for a long time now.

The end.

I wanted to share not because I think it's an especially fantastic essay (I don't) but I'd like your feedback, what do you think about this? 

Ps. I found the resume in an email. :)