30 April 2010

I Found My Pearl Colored Fingernail Polish Yesterday :)

So today was the best day I had ALLLL week! :)


I'll tell you all about it!


So. I went to the library this morning with 2 of the coolest freshman..well actually I walked with one and the other already happened to be there...anyway. They're fun, I like them. :) And I got over half of the rest of my project done! YAY!! All I have to do is type up stuff I've already written! yay!!


So we're sitting there for about an hour and in walks Clive and his friend [that I haven't named :) haha] and what do ya know..they sit right at the table next to us! haha. That was fun.


Then I went to work...it was intense in there..oh boy...lol


Then to class where we accomplished absolutely nothing.


Lunch with Rebecca! I haven't gotten to eat with her at all this week so that was fun! We then went to the bookstore to get cough drops for her. While there I saw that you can get a free t-shirt if you sell your books there AND pre-package them SIGN ME UP! lol. I also found out that you can sell books that you didn't buy from there...So I'm meeting my mother tomorrow she can bring all the textbooks she can find that I've had throughout college to me. :) I think there are some in basement somewhere but I know there are at least like 3 that are upstairs from last semester.


Then I had the irritating class. It wasn't so bad today.


Then I came back to my room, finished some more of my project, futzed around on the computer. While futzing I remembered that I was really mad about my stupid car insurance going up so I was talking to my mom about it and she told me to go to Progressive.com and get a quote. Do you know that they are gonna charge me HALF of what I'm paying now! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT!?!? I said SIGN ME UP! lol. So, luckily my policy with my other company is up next Saturday so I told them I didn't wanna renew it and I am now under Progressive. Shoo. :) AND I momma told me that my sister wants to get a mobile phone and wants under my plan..then she can pay half and I'll pay the other half and that will cut all my life expenses in HALF!!! PRAISE THE LORD PRAISE THE LORD. He answers prayer, for sure!!


Then went swimming. Man, Andrea kicked my butt today. It was ROUGH lol. But I'm glad she did or else I won't get the proper training. Ya know? 
Then she, Rebecca and I went to eat mexican. Yum. Then Dairy Queen. Yum. THEN we watched Pride and Prejudice LOOOOOVE that movie!!


Now I'm back in my room thinking about going to sleep. :)


Goodnight all.

28 April 2010

Dip da dipdadip doowop didoobydip ramalamalamakadinkadadinkdadong shoobopshoowatawatyippityboomtaboom changchangchangitychangchabop.

Today was interesting...:)


My lesson went well for the most part...I had trouble with one passage that I've NEVER had trouble with before..so that was EXTREMELY frustrating. 


Went to my other class. That was boring.


Another class that was fun. We pretended we were in colorguard and spun flags in the Quad. Passersby looked at us funny but who cares what they think.


Another class. STUPID. This teacher is just ridiculous and doesn't make any logical sense at all. Whatever. One more class period.


Ugh..another class. This one was especially irritating today. Whatever. Ugh.


Talked with a fly friend. I love her. One of conversations went like this:


KG: I wanna be a sheep farmer in Vietnam
Me: Is it safe in Vietnam?
KG: um..I don't know
Me: Are there sheep in Vietnam?
KG: um..I don't know
Me: Isn't it a little hot and humid for sheep there?
KG: um..I don't know. But I could be the only sheep farmer there!
Me: Yea! You could hold the monopoly on cotton!!!
KG: yea...wait, sheep aren't made of cotton..
Me:....oh...OH THEY'RE MADE OF WOOL!!
laughter ensues. :)



haha. She's fun. :)
Another class. It wasn't TOO bad today. We talked about our final and did something else semi-productive.


I worked on my project for 2 hours while texting my boo Ali. :) I love her!
Then went to another class. It was good. Student conductors did a find job today!


Then to eat with my Twin! Yay. I miss her dearly. We had a good talk.
Then to church. Church was good. The basketball coach came and spoke. Good indeed.


Then to my room where I spent TWO HOURS on my project. Phew. I've still got more to go but I knocked out a big chunk and BLESS THE LORD my teacher moved the due date from Friday to Monday! So I've got all weekend to tweak it.


Last night while working on a different project with Rebecca, we were looking for a specific clip from a movie when we happened upon this one. IT'S HILARIOUS!! [mom, you won't be able to watch it, it's on youtube.]


Crank That-Up-Disney



Well. That's all, I believe.
Today I was very irritable and ornery. 
I hope tomorrow is better.
Pray for my job. It's so confusing what they want from me right now. I don't understand. Ugh. Just pray please.

26 April 2010

Grey Skies and Burnt Biscuits

I can't recall the last time I had a day this bad.

Let me recap.

1. Tried to practice this morning, got all the way through my pieces once and my mouth gave out because my reed was too hard. And I couldn't get it fixed until 2:30.

2. Mom calls and tells me my insurance is now going to be almost $10 more a month than I'm already paying. Great. I don't have that kind of money..plus the fact that they're cutting my hours next year so I REALLY don't have that kind of money. I later found out it will only be like $5...so nice of them to let me know BEFORE my bill came...apparently they want to send you into convulsions so you'll call their stink store. I hate car insurance.

3. I have some of the most idiotic teachers. One of them is so unrealistic. He expects us to learn all this stuff for a test that doesn't count that much but we only have to write a TWO page research paper. Please tell me how that makes sense!? Then he tells us to not make his life hard by turning in stuff so he doesn't have to grade it [or something like that..pretty much he doesn't want to do his job.] UGH.
     3a. My other idiotic teacher doesn't feel the need to let us out of class when he's taught all he can teach.  No, instead he wastes our time by making us listen to yuck. I could have been working on homework for his class during that time...

4. I have a listening test on Thursday. I burned the cd we're supposed to know back in January onto my Itunes...I now have no idea where it is. Nope, none at all. So I asked Rebecca to grab the one off his door...yea..wasn't there. Great.

5. I was waiting for my mom to deposit my check into my account so I would have money to buy a swimsuit I need. I went to click on the link I'd saved in my Favorites. The website was gone. Great. So I go to the website and try to find it again...the price has now been jacked up $20...Great. So I resort to the other one that's not as good of a brand but is cheap. I hope it lasts.

6. I'm stuck with this Form project. I can't figure it out. I've got over half of it done, but where the Development ends and the Recap begins, I can't decide! Ugh. I'm going to get help in a little while though.

That's all....for now.

25 April 2010

It's The Hardest Thing I'll Ever Have to Do. To Turn Around and Walk Away Pretending I Don't Love You.

I just had the best weekend I've had in a long time! I've never laughed so much in my entire life!! It was so great!!
I went home with my roommate and we took 3 other people with us. SO fun!!
We watched Fiddler on the Roof, the Sandlot, Ever After, and Mr & Mrs. Smith. 
We went to the mall. THAT was fun. :)
Her brother had this "Science Experiment" going on in his bathroom...and unfortunately I was the cause of it's demolition...[it wasn't a real one lol..he was just being a gross boy.]
Her mom made the BEST lunch today that I've had in SOOOOOO long. I miss home cooked food. So bad.
I had a really good time.


On a heavier note...I just found out that I won't know if I'll have a job or not until the END of May. What on Earth am I going to do for an entire month!? Oh my word. This is nuts. Guess I'll figure something out...


I love pandora. It's so cool. Right now I'm listening to the Backstreet Boys station.


I'm eating Spaghetti O's...so healthy.


So. This weekend..well last night we decided it would be fun to "like" everything on a few of our friends' facebook pages. We were right. It was fun. 
Then these 2 girls tried to pull a prank on us by taking Savannah's [one of the girls with us] stuffed pig..from her room in Murray...that was a lame prank. They think they won. They didn't.


Spaghetti O's aren't as good as I remember.


There was a MONSOON this weekend. It was..interesting. The Tornado sirens went off...but we didn't do anything. Haha. We just kept on watching Ever After. I love that movie! Even though I fell asleep. lol.


Well. I'm gonna go watch The Holiday. :) 


Have a nice week, friends. 

22 April 2010

What's Yo Name? What's Yo Numba?

Warning: This blog may start out on the whiny side. But it gets better, promise.


I'm tired of people who feel like they're entitled to put everyone down.
Who think they're better than everyone else.
Who feel like they need to know all that's going on all the time.
Who want in everyone's business.
Who care more about what they think than other people's opinions and feelings.
I'm tired of people who think they can walk all over everyone and not get told what's up.
Who love themselves entirely too much.
Who will argue with a brick wall.
Who insist that things must be done their way or no way at all.
              -and if it's done some other way it was done completely wrong
I'm tired of people who feel entitled in general.
I'm just tired.


I'm ready for the semester to be over.
To feel the sun on my face and the wind in my hair.
To ride with the windows down and the music blaring.
To see my best friend any time I want.
To hug my mom everyday. [and the other members of my family too]
To play with my dogs and sleep in my own bed.
To be barefoot and [relatively] carefree.
To spend more time with Bertha, she gets lonely, ya know.
To make new memories.


I'm ready to join the Navy.
To get in shape.
To move on with life.
To be on a ship.
To see nothing but ocean.
To meet new people and make new friends.
To be part of something bigger than anything I've ever known.


My Summer List
-Job
-Teach myself more banjo
-Practice for my recital
-Practice Aural Skills. Everyday. This is a must. There's no way around it. In fact, I may make a rule that until I've practiced Aural Skills I can't learn banjo. Sounds like a plan to me. :)
-Run a lot
-Bike even more
-Workout with Jenn
-Speaking of Jenn, hang out with her more.
-Visit my coffee shop peeps
-Eat less gross things
-Help my hair grow. Any suggestions?
-Love my Saviour more. 
-Be less selfish
-Find more *fun* people. haha.


That's all of that which I can think.


I smell like chlorine. Yum
I like spelling bees.
I wish they had them in college.
I also like asparagus. 
My friend's parents grow it. HOW COOL IS THAT!??! I've never had homegrown asparagus!


Goodnight.

20 April 2010

I'm Pretty Sure My Cat Has Been Reading My Diary

Well. It's been interesting. Warning: This will be in no particular order. Just whatever comes to mind.


I found out the real name of a guy I named Clive


The Mariners won!


Glee was HILARIOUS. Actually the previews for next week were hilarious.


I'm still in love with LL Cool J


I realized the other day that it's probably best for me to have to wait this next year to join the Navy so I know it's exactly what I want to do and not just a fly by the seat of my pants decision. Which I'm fully certain it's not.


I NEEEEED to pass aural skills with a C. PLLLLEEEEAAASSSEEE. The teacher drives me absolutely insane. Like, I don't think you guys get it. He's the same one who teaches my other class that has no rules when it comes to tests. I MUST get out of his class pronto!


Sometimes I'm not sure how I got signed up for certain mailing lists...like Billy Buchanan. I have no idea who he is but he sends me info all the time...


We now have a tennis ball in the office. :)


LAST fall. Like Fall of  08, I made a paper clip chain with my boss's paper clips and he JUST found out yesterday. Wow... :)


There are these HUGE pigeons that hang out on the landings of the fine arts building and I like to scream and scare them.


My arms hurt if I type too much.


I've been trying to wear my night guard but my bottom teeth have found a way to push it out of my mouth in the middle of the night and it drives me NUTS so I can't wear it...erg.


I'm soooooo ready for summer. Oh. My. Word. 


I like telling people I'm joining the Navy and seeing the expressions on their faces. Especially guys. It's a lot of fun. haha. I've gotten a variety of responses!


One of my favorite teachers has a man waiting for her to finish her doctoral stuff YAY. I'm sooo excited for her!!


I hate it when you comment on someone's status on facebook then 5 jillion other people have the same idea and you get 5 jillion notifications in return. Not my idea of a good time.


Bad grammar=BAD. 


I really like jelly beans a lot.


I did close to 300 crunches tonight. Yay. Go me. I won't be able to make it to the gym this week..so that's my compromise: crunches every night.


It feels sad to lose friends. Or when it feels like they don't care. But I guess it's part of life, right?


Sometimes I cry over milk that spilled 3 years ago. Yea, I know, it's lame. Trust me, I know. It's just so gross, it's all chunky and smelly. I can't help it.


I'm not a fan of the fact that I now have to get my student loans through the government..but I guess I'll learn to deal with it. There's not a lot I can do..


I miss my friends from home a lot.


I'm such a packrat. It's horrid. I save everything. I had a row of water bottles lined up on our dresser just in case I might need one. None of them had lids though...I dropped them down the sink. JUST KIDDING. :) HAHA. I threw them away. One day Liz asked me "Are you trying to collect one of every kind of water bottle?" and I said "huh?...oh....no...." hahha. yea. It's ridiculous.


I have clothes that don't fit me but I just can't bring myself to give them away. I'm afraid they'll fit again someday and then I'll need them..or I have memories in them that I'm just not ready to give up. I'm a strange soul. But you already knew that, right?


I think people that think the world is really going to end in 2012 are ignorant. No one knows the day or the hour, true we know the season but He's not coming back December 12, 2012. It'll be when we least expect it. On December 11. Duh. :)


I love my parents. And from what I can tell they love me too. :)


I really want to travel soooo bad. I wanna go to Atlanta, to Florida [I've never been there] to Chicago, San Diego, DC, Alabama, Seattle. Ugh I wanna be anywhere but KY right now..


I feel like everyone I know is getting married, or at least on the path. This stinks. I don't want to get married....not anytime soon. Well, maybe I do. I'll change my mind when I meet the right person. But I'm pretty sure I haven't met him yet. Like that Michael Buble song, probably the only one I like. :)




I came up with a GENIUS plan to never lose another toothpaste cap every again!!!! I got a head band that I never wear, super glued one end to the cap and tied the other end around the tube see: 


GENIUS, RIGHT?!?!?! I think so.




I should go to bed. I thought of so many things to blog about but I didn't write any of them down..and they were GOOOD too. :) Oh well. Maybe next time.


Goodnight all.

17 April 2010

10 Things I Hate About You

Today was INTERESTING. I'll list interesting things [mostly] in order of which they happened.


0. I woke up at 6:30, looked at my phone and saw that an IDIOT had called me at 5:30. WHY ON EARTH!?!?! Ugh. Whatever. lol 


1. Rebecca and I are driving along and I see the exit for the interstate, yes I notice there are 2 different ones..I get on the 1st one. We drive not even a mile and I say "I think we're going the wrong way." [deja vu, right? lol, if you haven't read my last blog then you don't know what I'm talking about] Sure enough, we come over a hill and there's bridge we [by we I mean she] have never seen before and she says "Oh! Where does that go!?" and I say "TENNESSEE....UUUUGGGGHHH" So we turn around..that's like 4 miles of gas wasted. Great.


2. Get to rehearsal. I need to go to the Chocolate Factory, I ask one person to go with me and I end up taking like 5 people lol. We walked, it was really nice outside. It took A LOT less time than I expected.


3. The bass player with the melanin wore funny clothes today lol.


4. I see the guy with the hair wearing heels. Yes. a GUY wearing HEELS. I'm not joking.


5. Rehearsal is let out late because we have to get in a seating arrangement...then they just say oh wherever you are just stay there.


6. We left for the restaurant.We knew exactly which direction to go...but the road we wanted to take was one way and the we'd already passed the road we needed to take. So we continued forward thinking "well this will run into this road and we'll get there" No such luck. We eventually got to residential area that wasn't taking us anywhere we needed to go. So we turned around and found the 1st street we passed. We got to the restaurant 15 minutes late and my family made fun of us. sort of.


7. We left, got gas, where I pulled too close to the pump. That was fun. We drove back with no problems except my parents are slow pokes. Anyway we made it back to the parking lot safely. BUUUUT once in the parking lot, this stinkin guy thought he would get to a spot faster than me so he went the WRONG way. We almost hit him..we circled around because there were no spots so we headed toward the exit well here comes Mr. "I'm gonna get a better spot than you" zipping around the corner and almost hits us AGAIN!!! WHAT THE HECK DUDE!?!?! The bass player with the melanin was standing right there when it happened and he had a HILARIOUS face. It was priceless. 


8. We go in. I follow Rebecca, for whatever reason, even though I really needed to follow my parents. Anyway. I find my seat because I don't sing on the first half. 


9. I sit through A LOT of music. All the while contemplating life. I had an interesting conversation with myself inside my head. The 2 new friends I made were HILARIOUS. I love them!! They're SO cool!


10. Intermission comes, so I go backstage. Ok, all I really want is some water. That's all. So I walk to the water jug and the guy with the hair is standing in front of it, so I try to politely wait for him to move...he doesn't. So I just start talking to my friend. Meanwhile, this older man, maybe his dad or grandfather walks up and hands him flowers and he says "I can't take these now I'm not done singing, I can't take them on stage" so he gives them back and kisses the guy ON THE LIPS!!! EEEEEEWWWWWWWWW!!!!!! THAT'S SOOOO GROSS!!!! Ok, so I'm standing awkwardly beside them and this woman next me keeps backing up and backing up so she can take a picture of these 2 men...well she squishes me into them and I'm in the most awkward sandwich EVVERRR!!!


11. Then we go on stage and the woman who squished me walks sort of past me and I look at her...it's awkward. I won't elaborate but just trust me. My brain is singed.


12. We sing, it goes off mostly with out a snag, I came in once when I wasn't supposed to lol. 


13. Rebecca and I search for a LONG time to find our parents. I find mine first but there are TONS of people crowded around so we can't get to them...then we finally do. They meet. We talk. We walk. Then we take my parents to the interstate. We come back without getting lost. Go us!! :)


That's all. Man...it was definitely a day and a half. 


Love to all.
-The Girl Who Smiles All the Time
[that's what my 2 new friends call me lol]

Hello Seattle, I Am a Moutaineer.

Today was SUUUUPER long. But really good too. :)


I worked this morning. That's always entertaining! Jesse and I found an AWESOME pandora radio station: NSYNC!! :) It's the bomb.com!!! 
We found out interesting things about people.


Quote of the Day: Switch Teams!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH


Last night one of the drummers sleep walked across the back of the stage and I had to go get him. That was FUN! lol


After work I went to class. Class that I was supposed to have a test in this past Wed. but the teacher skipped so it's not been moved to Monday. Class that I was supposed to turn in a rough draft of a paper but that was also moved to Monday. Class where I learned about Indian [as in from India] performing arts culture...that was interesting. Then Wind Ensemble where I magically have parts to play now. Woohoo. So I didn't really get to eat lunch, which is ok because I wasn't really hungry and I was saving room for FLAMINGO ROOOWWW!!!


Then Form class where I was wrong the entire time, no matter what I said it wasn't even the slightest bit right...go figure. Then back to my room to sit. Which I did marvelously. :)


Rebecca finished her arranging then we went to Wal-mart, got gas and then off to rehearsal, but FIRST Flamingo Row. :) yum yum yum I LOVE that place!!! 


Rehearsal was fun. Haha. I sat by Anna, she plays oboe too!! We had fun. We talked about the bass players, they were cute. :) [before rehearsal started, Rebecca called dibs on one of them, but Anna had already claimed him. That was a fun time.] Then my friend Laura, on the other side of me said "I think that guy playing bells is kind of cute, in a grunge sort of way" and i said "eh...he's not my type." and she said "oh, do you like more clean cut guys?" 
".....um...not necessarily" 
"ok?" 
"he doesn't have enough melanin for me"
"what is melanin?" 
"the stuff that makes your skin color."
"oh, so you like dark guys?"
"uh...yea.."
"darkER guys...?"
"black? yes?"
"HAHAHAHAH" 
that was SO funny lol. 
Then we sang. Then we waited for the people that rode with us. We talked about fun things.


I told one of my favorite teachers that I'm joining the Navy and she was beside herself lol. She said "for the men?" and I said "HAHAHAHAHA no, that's not what I said" then she said to be careful of the "g's" because I'll get wrinkles HAHAHA. :) I love her!


Then we drove home...well we started to.
Funny story: This kid passed up that's in choir and we both know him. So I subconsciously thought "well I'll just follow him, even though I know the way" so I was talking to Rebecca and he gets on the interstate, so I follow. And as we're entering I say "um..I think we're going the wrong way.." and she says "hm, the wrong way?" and I said "yea" well, sure enough we were lol!! So we just turned off on an exit we knew and turned around. That was fun. :)


THEN. We got on the highway after the interstate and this guy ZOOMS past me. And I say, yes, out loud "I hope you get pulled over" I probably shouldn't have said that but they were going REALLY fast when it was only supposed to be fast. Then a while later we're coming into town over this hill and we see blue lights on the right side of the road and Rebecca said "it would be funny if it was the guy that passed us earlier" and I said "HAHAH yea." so we looked AND IT WAS!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH JUSTICE WAS SERVED. I love it when that happens. 


Today I was talking to Jennifer. She said "I realized yesterday that your mom is just as bad as you when it comes to jay walking" and I said "you mean she doesn't do it?" and she said "yea she said something to me about doing it" and I said "BECAUSE IT'S BREAKING THE LAW!!!! it's just like running a red light!!!" 
And it is. Jay walking makes me VERY uncomfortable and sometimes in certain places you can get a ticket for doing so!


I wanna watch Sleepless in Seattle. That's such  a good movie!!!


Sometimes I find notes I've written myself so I remember to do things months after I've written them lol. The other day I had my lesson and while my teacher was talking to me I felt a paper in my pocket...I hadn't worn these shorts in a LOOOONG time so I really wasn't sure what it was. As he was talking I pulled it out and looked at it. Of course he stopped talking because he realized I wasn't paying attention to what he was saying. And he asked what it was. At the time I had no idea, it had a bunch of doodling and words on it. Lol, sounds like me. I later figured out that it was notes from a Sunday night sermon.


I love Jesus. :) 
I love you too. 
Thanks for reading my blog. :)

14 April 2010

Don't Take Her She's All I Got

My life has been pretty normal lately. Nothing too exciting.

I've gotten in the funk though where I wake up Monday morning [mostly] bright eyed and bushy tailed. Tuesday morning is maybe just bushy tailed and Wednesday I'm dead tired all day. What is this!? Irritating, that's what. I don't understand why this is happening. I need it to stop NOW. Mmk thanks.

Liz can't sleep right now. She keeps getting up and talking to me lol.

Tonight at church our campus pastor said he needed a volunteer who was a Bible Scholar and if they got the question he was going ask correct he'd give them $100. Well for whatever reason no one raised their hand...I was like well ok I will. I need $100 lol. So I go up there and the first question he asks is "Who were the 2 people who came back from Canaan and said everything was good?" Well that's easy, Joshua and Caleb. The next question is the one that was worth the $100. It was "Name 2 of the ten who said it was a bad place." Haha. I couldn't do it. All I could think of was Benjamin, which I later found out that one of them was from the tribe of Benjamin. Needless to say, I didn't win the $100. But it was fun anyway. :)

I love my friends. One of them just gave Liz and I lots of food. :) Yay.

School is almost over. Woohoo. I wanna be in the sun all day!! Lol. It kills me to go to stinky class and sit in stinky flourescent lighting!! Ugh.

The lemon cake is gone. Finally. lol

This weekend I get to sing the Mozart Requiem. Yay. I'm SOOOO excited!!!

Well. That's all I've got.

Goodnight.

11 April 2010

Ne absorbeat eas tatarus ne cadant in obscurum*

My roommate is so stinkin clever. I can't even begin to describe how much so. She taught Sunday school this morning and it was BRILLIANT absolutely marvelous. One of a kind. I'm so proud to call her my roommate. :)

Church was good. 

I drove to Paducah for a rehearsal. The ride was nice, good conversation. 
Rehearsal was good I guess. It felt a little pointless just because we'd gone over most of it before. I guess it was good for everyone to get all together and sing. 
The drive back was pleasant. Both passengers snoozed for a while.
I saw a truck of armies. :)

Upon arrival back in Murray, Rebecca and I studied for a stupid test we have tomorrow. Our teacher is so unreasonable. He just doesn't get life I don't think. He assigns SO much for the test..and then tells us to write a research paper..that only has to be TWO PAGES...WHAT THE HECK!?!? I feel like there's something wrong here....

Last night I encountered some interesting folks in the elevator. Yep. Interesting indeed.

I wish I was the type to tell people what I think without being asked. 
I'm not very confrontational, most days.
Although what I have to say won't really cause confrontation, just awkwardness I guess.
Then again, I am the self proclaimed Princess of Awkwardness [my neighbor is the Queen.]

I hope this week goes by fast. I have lot to get done and it would be really nice to be able to do it all. Yea.

Prayers for my friends please.
Both are having familial hard times. 
They need comfort. 
Thanks. :)

I need more time to train for my lifeguarding course.



*That hell not swallow them up, that they fall not into darkness

10 April 2010

I'm Not The Shoes I Wear, I'm Not The Car I Drive..My Identity is Found In Christ

One time I watched this episode of Sabrina. In it, she had a boyfriend who was artsy fartsy and he called her his muse. [A muse is a source of inspiration, according to dictionary.com] She flipped out and thought she had to be doing all these "muse-like " things..like being philosophical and deep all the time..needless to say, it didn't work out. I tell you all this to say: I'm glad I'm not someone's muse, someone's sole source of inspiration. I'm not sure why I thought of this but that's a huge job to have and I'm so not that inspirational. That just came to mind.


I hate when people don't stand up for themselves when it comes to their friends. If you don't want to go somewhere with someone, tell them. If they get mad then that's their problem, not yours. Yes, I just had an encounter with this earlier today.


Today, I'm very thankful but in need of attention...ok maybe not need...but I'd sure like some. Poo on that.


I cleaned earlier. Sort of.


It's frustrating that I go through phases [sometimes these phases last minutes, seconds or maybe even days] where I want something so badly..then the next minute, second or day..I couldn't care less if I ever saw that object ever again. And somedays, like today I'm just torn..I don't know what I want and I don't know if I should know if I can or do want it or not. Am I making sense to anyone? My brain is so stinking annoying. I wish there was a button I could push to make it stop thinking and just go. Thinking is the bane of my existence somedays. God should include "off" switches for the thinking parts of our brains. Sometimes I just want to sit. Not think. Not contemplate or plan. Just sit. This is a really hard task for me. I like to analyze. Most times when I'm not talking I'm analyzing everything going on around me. But, on rare occasion, I'll really just be spacing out.


Today is a rambling day. Sorry to those who needed some wise words of wisdom or something...probably not gonna happen today.


You'd probably like to know about my interview...right? Ok. I'll tell you.
1st. This place is DOWN town. I'm not kidding...why do I feel like I've written this before.. ? anyway...like in the GHETTO!
We were cruisin along on 3rd..[it was on the 1000 block] then, we turn this corner and BAM we're on 2nd! WHAT ON EARTH!?!? We'd only gotten to the 800 block!!! So I freak out on the inside a little. I think "THIS PLACE IS BOGUS AND I JUST WASTED ALL THAT GAS DRIVING HERE" Then we spot a police man and ask him where this joint is. He gives us directions but really, he has no idea either. So we go the way he told us and end up in the same place. So Tatiana suggests that we go back to 4th and go down a little ways. So we do. We're cruisin along and all the sudden I see something I recognize...now this is not something I SHOULD recognize lol. [might I interject? boys are RETARDED, ok moving on] I only know of it because of the way we go to Sounds games sometimes takes us down the road with all the strip clubs...there's one that is purple and white and that's the one I recognized and when I said HEY! I KNOW THAT PLACE! Tatiana looked at me REALLY weird...lol. Then I explained. So then we found 3rd and found the place. It's SOOOOOO tiny!! Oh man oh man. It's TINY. So I carefully maneuver around the 100 ft parking lot. Maybe it's bigger, but not much PLUS it has like 7 HUGE trucks in it. Ok. So I go in, have my interview...which takes MAYBE 10 minutes, she tells me they can't hire me until I've passed the lifeguarding course and we leave. Well when we leave we find where 3rd avenue disappeared lol. Someone built a big ol' hill right in the middle of it. So we turn around and head home. Yay.


2nd. The woman calls me, I miss her call. I call her back. It goes to voicemail. We arrive home. She calls again. Yay I answer. Then she informs me that I will need to pay $135 on top of the 100 I've already paid to take the lifeguarding course. Woohoo. I don't have that money. Prayers for a financial miracle are appreciated. 


That's all about the interview....


You know what my favorite thing ever is!? When someone says they'll text you and they don't. And when I say favorite I mean: something that upsets me.


I got some Super Miracle Bubbles from Megan Brown...I'm not sure what the title is implying. Maybe if I pour them on my bank account it will multiply the contents by 10000? That'd be REALLY fly.


Yesterday I went swimming..to train for my course. It was fun..sort of. The pool we were in was WAY longer than the other one we usually use. I need more practice. Fridays are the only time I have€ though. Boo. I was just practicing my breaststroke and I think Liz was looking at me funny. Oh well, what's new? :)


You know what my second favorite thing is? When someone talks to you because they want something from and only because of that. Yea....It's the bomb...


I always think of things to blog about...when I'm not sitting at my computer or right after I've already posted my blog..ain't that something?


I'm in a good mood today, I promise. I just have a lot of thoughts jumbled in my head and all the mean ones seem to be coming out..I guess that's good, right? Then when there's no more I'll have all the good ones left.


Sometimes I wish we were married in the womb. That would make life so much easier. In my head, it would anyway. I know there would still be infidelity but if you ignore that then life would be grand. I'm joining the Navy soon...well in a year..but that's sooner than 10 years. I was talking to a friend last night I told her that my prince better hurry up and wake up or I'll be 20,000 miles away when he gets out of bed and begins his search. And she said "Maybe your prince is in the Navy" ya know, maybe he is. He better appreciate the 21 years I've been waiting for him. Geez lol. :)


I love Jesus like no other and I know He's got the best things in mind for me. Sometimes I just need to be reminded. So if you see me, or think about me, and feel the urge to remind me, please do because it's very possible at that moment I could be thinking only of the immediate future and trying to jam a squared puzzle piece into a rounded hole. This is an everyday occurrence for me. I'm human, therefore I'm impatient. I want what I want and I want it NOW. You know, that whole instant gratification thing? I've got it tattooed on my shoulder blades. I need to learn that the best things in life you have to wait for. And I, myself, am willing to wait, but my brain likes to take a different approach. :) 


Liz is wiping down our room with Clorox disinfecting wipes. haha I'm going to take a nap.


Well, I guess that's all I've got for today.