Ebony and Ivory Live Together in Perfect Harmony!

Fun comes in different levels. 
I have different levels of fun with different people.
I'm not saying that these levels can be achieved...maybe levels is the wrong word.
Maybe I should use "category"
Let me start over.


Fun comes in different categories.
I have different kinds of fun with different people.
This is not to say that some people are more fun than others.
Just that people are fun in different ways.


I spent the whole weekend with my dear dear friend Kaylee.
I love her and she's getting married in June.
Soooo guess what we did this weekend!!!
That's right! We tie dyed our tennis shoes.
Just kidding. :) We shopped for her wedding dress.
It was so fun. Frustrating at times...not REALLY frustrating. Just hard to understand what she really wanted at times. But that's ok, it didn't take away from my fun experience..it added a little entertainment. :)


Well. We got to her house Friday afternoon, the same time her brother did [who, I'm pretty sure would fall in love with my sister should he ever meet her. ;)]
We took our stuff downstairs. Let me tell you what...they kill animals in that house! Well not IN the house..but the people that live in it kill them OUTSIDE the house...theeeeen they mount them!
So I marveled at these dead animals..wandered about inspecting them. Ya know, to make sure they're really dead. 
Good news: they were. :)
Then we played "try on clothes Ms. Fry doesn't want anymore! That was a FUN game!! Got me some new clothes!!!! :) Then the boys went somewhere and we hung 

out with her mom which was FUN! We watched Made of Honor! Cute movie.
I ended up sleeping in the room with the dead ones...but Mr. Snuffles protected me though :) Yes, that's a beaver. The biggest beaver I've ever seen in my entire life...dead. hahahah. He was cool though. He kept all the little critters away. :)


Saturday:Kaylee, her mom and I went shopping for dresses! WOOHOO. But she didn't find "the one" which is perfectly acceptable. The people at that store were....interesting. They were very helpful and they knew their stuff but they just weren't getting it. 


Then we met her brothers and step-dad and went to eat at Cheddar's. It's REALLY good. I'd never been there before. Her step-dad was in the Marines, he was really funny. And her brothers were fun too her youngest youngest rides dirt bikes..and the other goes to college! Then we went back to the house and thought about whether we were going back to school that night or not. After several hours of deliberation we decided no. We ate TACO pizza and looked up more dress places that were open on Sunday in another nearby town! We found one place WOOOOHOOOOO!!!! 

Then we went to bed..weeeellll we tried to go to bed. We decided we were going to sleep in her oldest youngest brother's room [the one that's gonna marry my sister]...I walked over to the side I wanted, went to pull back the covers and saw this guy dangling from the headboard...I said "uuuuhh what is that?!" and she said "what do you think it is?"..I looked at the back and said "i have no idea" and she said "it's a beaver!" and I said "MR. SNUGGLES BROTHER! HOW SAD!..i don't know if I can sleep on this side." So we traded..but not before we took some more pictures with the dead animals! have a looksee!

 

Needless to say, we had fun. :) Then we went to bed!

Went to church Sunday. Ate Subway then DRESS SHOPPING. 

Kaylee was a little stressed and I told her "You watch, you'll get the first dress you try on, we'll be done and on our way back to Murray in no time." well...the first part was right. She ordered the first dress she tried on, only after 3 hours of trying on about 7 [maybe more..but I don't think soothers though. :) haha. Her mom and I both knew as soon as she walked out of that curtained area with that dress on that it was hers! She didn't know at this point but we did. For a little while there was a close 2nd but I knew she wouldn't choose that one. :) It's gorgeous, that's all I'm saying, in case Carl is reading this BAHAHAH. :) 

Then we ate at Red Robin [yuuuummmm]. It was DELICIOUS! I'd never been there before! 

I'm so glad she invited me to go. I haven't had that much of that kind of fun in a LONG time and I'm very thankful.

I'm thankful for her and her family. Her mother is so wonderful and I'm so glad I got to get to know her a little bit this weekend!

Her brothers and step-dad are cool too...but they're just boys! haha. 

They have a BEAUTIFUL home! Just marvelous!
I'm so thankful for her friendship and love and I'm SOOOOO excited to see her marry Carl. They're so sweet and I just love them both!

Yay for a successful weekend!

AAAAAAHHHHH! I almost forgot!

At the wedding shop, I had an epiphany. It was like WHOA! DUH.

I will have the song Ebony and Ivory at my wedding. Only makes sense, right!??!?!? hahaha.

I had initially said I'd walk down the aisle to that song. I'm not entirely sure about that. But it WILL be in my wedding somewhere. BAHAHHA.

Isn't that the best idea you've heard all day!?!?!? HAHAHAHAHHA.

Ok. Until next time. :)

My Life Be Like Ooooh Aaaah

Day 30: One Last Moment

Well. I still haven't found an EXCELLENT topic..so I'll just write on this mediocre one. :)

I've been DYING to tell you all about my wedding dress.

WHOA calm down, no, I'm not getting married lol. One of my best friends is though and I was looking at dresses with her, naturally. :)
And I saw the back of this one in the catalog, I wrote down the name of the website and searched for it. FOUND IT. :) It's so beautiful. No, I don't even have a boyfriend but this dress must be mine with a get married.

Your question: will you still be able to get it when you get married? Well the plan is to get married in 2012 hahaha, the website goes back to dresses from fall of 2002..so I sure hope it's still there and available. I've written down the name and the designer in a safe place so I don't forget. :)

Oooh it's so beautiful, you'll love it. Here take a look. :)

Well. I was going to put the pictures in here but looks like I can't..so I'll just tell you what to do.

Go to casablancabridal.com
Type "2004" into the search bar on the top right..HURRY before the music starts! lol.
BINGO! You're now looking at the dress I'll be wearing in my wedding. Make sure to look at all the pictures. It's so beautiful.
No, I have no idea how much it costs but it doesn't matter right now because I don't have a man...
Someday. :)

Well that's all. :)
I'll start looking for a new fun blog thing to do!

A Bushel and A Peck

Today's topic [well yesterday's topic] is  supposed to be "one last moment" but I can't think of one yet. Just wanted to tell all of you I haven't forgotten. When I figure it out you'll be the first to know. ;)

I would like to say that today I got my graduation packet! Woohoo!! :)
AND I picked out all my classes for next semester...scheduling doesn't start for a while but I did pick them out! :) Yay.

I'm glad school is ending for me.
Please continue praying about Aural Skills. This class bites hard! I hate it. I'm doing ok in it...I need to be doing better. Singing tests are coming up and I'm usually better at those than I am the other ones..so yea.

Ok. That's all.

Day 29: Your Aspirations

I'm not sure what to write since I told you once already about my dreams..but my best best friend said I should define aspiration..I think that's a good a idea and it'll probably push me in the right direction. :) Soooo.

According to dictionary.com, an aspiration is a strong desire, longing or aim.

Hm...things I strongly desire.

to be in the Navy. NOW.
to marry....:) someone with lots of melanin BAHAHAHAHAHHA
to graduate.
to be a foster parent
to travel the world
to love Jesus and show that love to others more and more everyday
to be in shape and eat right
to have money to do things other than sit in Murray
to forget
to be pursued. none of that chasing boys around for me, no sirree!
to enjoy my job again
to speak my mind without suffering the consequences of doing so
to be able to fly
to send letters to all military families who have lost loved ones in this war and to make them genuine so they know I mean what I say...I would have done this a while ago but I have NO idea where to get that information..so if you know, you could tell me and I'd appreciate it.
to get a whole month of good sleep and not be tired at all...well not until it's time to go to bed
to dance in the rain...preferably at my wedding but before then is acceptable too

That's all you need to know for now. Plus I had an INTENSE workout today so I'm whooped. :)

Tomorrow is the last day...I've got to start planning now on what to say..I've got to make it special. I hope you've enjoyed the past 29 days. :)
Maybe I can find something similar to do for the next 30 days...don't get your hopes up, I don't plan on looking too hard.

Don't Let Your Life Pass You By

Day 28: Something You Miss.

I miss the simplicity that life used to have. I took it for granted, I know I did. Especially naps..geez louise. I remember every Sunday my parents would have to FORCE me to take a nap..seriously I'd fight it and fight it. They made us sleep with daddy to make sure we actually slept..or at least laid still for a few hours. I  miss having time for naps.

I was just thinking about this today, actually. I was reading through some old emails and found some between my ex-best friend and I..I've told you about her before. Well. We were really best friends. I don't know how to phrase that so you'll understand. When you think about best friends..we were it. Now we're not even acquaintances. I miss her. It upsets me that it's ended up like this but I can't say I didn't try.

I miss feeling wanted. I've reached a point in my life where I feel like I'm ready for a relationship..I don't think I've ever really felt like this before and it freaks me out a little..especially since all the guys I know don't want to be more than friends with me..

I miss being around animals on a regular basis. They bring joy and comfort to my life. They make me feel relaxed...unless they're in heat. Oh. My. Word. I hate being home when it's that time of the year.

I miss being able to watch tv for hours and hours lol. That's really lame and I know it's mind numbing but sometimes you just need to get away from the real world and let fiction suck you in.

I miss my friends from home. My ones at school are beyond fantastic but they aren't my friends from home, ya know? They're different.

I miss my friends from Taiwan. A LOT. I wish they didn't live so far away. I want to see them and hang out with them again. I love them and I miss them so much.

I miss not having to spend every penny of my money on bills. Seriously, I have zero money..actually negative money..according to my checkbook..according to the bank I've got more. This is ridiculous.

I miss my Grandma Bandle. She died when I was 11, I didn't get to know her as well as I would have liked to, I think talking to her as an adult would have been an interesting experience. But now I'll never know.

I miss being able to read all the time. One summer, I read close to probably 20 books!! For real.

I just miss life when I wasn't in college.

PoPo Shut Us Down Down.

Day 27: Your Favorite Place.


My favorite place is in your arms.


There are plenty of physical places that I absolutely LOVE: Chicago, Atlanta, St. Louis, NYC, DC, Nashville. But these really don't have any meaning to me. They're just places to visit, sights to see. 


I love hugs. Anyone who knows me knows that. And if you're reading this that means I have some sort of relationship with you. I care about you and our friendship. And because of that, I'm sure I've hugged you. And if I haven't well shame on me. 


Relationships mean a lot to me. I try to take good care of mine. I value them above some other things..not all but some.


Nothing makes me feel better than a hug. So if I look like I'm down or just having a rough day, hug me. It may not fix my problems but it will at least make me feel better for a little while.


Hugging me is like saying "I love you" When I took the Love Languages test a while back, my love language was physical touch[I think it's changed since then but I'm sure.. it's still right up there with whatever has taken it's spot though]. And who doesn't want to be loved? It's one of the greatest feelings in the world! A feeling that I never want to lose. 


So. Next time you see me, no matter what I'm doing..unless I'm sleeping or something [then your hug will not be appreciated] HUG ME my favorite place is in your arms, after all. :)

I Have a Stupid Ke$ha Song in My Head.

Day 25: A First.

I'm not sure which "first" to choose.

Ok. I've got a few "first times" to tell you about, all pertaining to the same subject...driving.

The first time I went over 10 mph, I was in the old Wal-Mart parking lot. I was driving my daddy's stick shift [jsyk, I just left the "f" out of that word at first HAHAHAH]. We had to learn to drive that before an automatic. Anyway, so I'm driving, I'm in 2nd gear and 1. the car starts making a funny noise 2. I'm going "REALLY" fast. Well obviously "really" is a relative term because I was only going 25 mph!!!! hah I said "WHY AM I GOING SO FAST!?!?!" and daddy said "because you're pressing the accelerator, now change gears" Oh my.

The first time I drove my dad's car anywhere but the Wal-Mart parking lot was to Beaman Toyota on Broadway...
Yea. It was an experience. I made it alright to Bordeaux. Then I got to that 2nd, maybe 3rd light, where it forks off to D.B. Todd. Well I had to stop at it. Ok..whatever stopping is no big deal. Well, when I went to go, I couldn't. I killed it several times..as if I weren't feeling bad enough, the people behind me started HONKING! Ugh. Seriously!?!? I was so upset. My dad says "Don't worry about them, focus on what you're doing" Obviously I eventually got it going, I probably killed it 4 or 5 more times before we made it to the dealership. I was so upset, mostly because my dad made me drive. THEN I had to drive home too. Oh my goodness. So we're driving home, make it all the way through Bordeaux and I'm about to turn onto Hwy 12..those of you who know what I'm talking about can attest to the fact that that turn place is a little bit confusing..if you don't know exactly where you're turning then you'll probably guess wrong. Well. I guessed wrong and over shot it. I had to turn in where the people coming towards me would merge on..Daddy got kind of upset..he said I wasn't paying attention but I was! That whole experience was traumatic. Actually, I don't know if I've even driven his car down there again since then...if I have I don't recall.

The 2nd time I drove it anywhere but a parking lot was down Old Hickory Blvd, where you turn left off Hwy 12. Yea..thanks dad. So we're driving along and eventually we come to this HUGE hill on the left. He says, ok, just pull in there and turn around...so I pull up there..those of you that know Old Hickory Blvd know that it's curvy and hilly...well I couldn't see anyone coming buuuut apparently there was and we almost got hit. Then once I was turned around I still couldn't see so I took a leap of faith..and well, we didn't get hit. :)

The 1st time I drove in the high school parking lot...this was probably shortly after the old Wal-Mart lot incident.. So I  had planned on just driving around the school while my mom was in a meeting [my dad was with me]. So we are driving along..we turn in front of the school [parallel to the highway] because I know there's a gate down at the end that will take me around the back. We get to the end and the gate is locked...GRRRRREAT. So I have to turn around. Now, remember I haven't done much driving and I'm not even sure if I knew how to reverse at this point yet. So I'm slowly turning the car around. I get it turned around and I'm seriously going 2 mph...somehow I don't turn in the wheel quick enough and we run right into that concrete wall...yep sure do. I was so upset! He told me to calm down, no one was hurt and there was no real damage. That dent is still in his front fender. :)

The 1st time I ever drove Bertha...I was going down this huge hill and the windshield wipers came on...I was like uuuuh ok. Well then they came on when I turned my blinker on..I've since figured out I'm sure there's a short somewhere in there..it's just humorous. My friends giggle when it happens..I just ignore it. Although sometimes if I think about it I try to play a game with it and if I can turn on the turn signal without the wipers coming on I win..if not..well she wins. :) It's a fun game.

The 1st time I ever backed Bertha down my best friend, Jennifer's, hill. Oh my word she has the most ridiculous driveway EVER. It's a steep hill full of gravel. And it's really crammed at the top, there's not much room to turn around, so I had to back down it. So I'm doing my thing, backing down. I get to the bottom and my truck shuts off...and keeps rolling. Now this wouldn't be too big of a deal if there wasn't a CLIFF on the other side of her driveway..so I'm freaking out. I throw it into park and try to figure out what's going on. I turned her back on and got out of there. Oh my goodness I freaked out. I've since found out that I had a bad O2 sensor and you know what that means? Well I'll tell you. It means if you have the radio, the heater and the lights on and you're not pushing the gas, your vehicle will turn off because there's no juice headed to the battery. It's scary. I've stopped at stoplights and had it happen. Now that I know what to do it's not big deal but that first time I thought I was going to die. Oh. Daddy changed my O2 sensor so that shouldn't happen anymore.

I can't think of anymore traumatizing firsts...

Day 26: Your Fears.
I'm afraid:

I won't graduate
I won't make it in the Navy
I won't get to fly planes
I won't get married
I'll never be loved like I want to be
He'll never get saved
I'll always be the "best friend"
I'll always be "too good"
I'll end up doing something I hate
I'll say the wrong thing to the wrong person at the wrong time
I'll never have a family
I won't be able to have foster kids
I'll have to live somewhere cold
I'll lose their friendship
My extended family will never know the love of Jesus
I'll run out of time
I'll die young
I won't reach my full potential

I have more fears but I need to go to bed so I can study in the morning.
Goodnight.

Suddenly I See...

Day 24: Something That Makes You Cry

Ugh...once again, there are plenty of things that make me cry.


1. The commercials about abused animals.
2. That song about the little girl whose dad kills him and her mom and then she gets adopted and goes to Sunday School. Every time..that song gets me.
3. The love that Jesus has for me and how I most times take it for granted.
4. The thought of always being the "best friend" and nothing more. Sometimes that irritates me more than it makes me cry..but a lot of times it makes me cry.
5. When my mom calls just to tell me she loves me.
6. When I've put a lot of hard work into something and it doesn't show at all.
7. When my best friend drops off the face of the planet and doesn't talk to me anymore.
8. Stubbing my toe.
9. Some songs, places, and scents associated with certain people
10. When people yell at me.
11. When people don't realize that they are loved.
12. When my dad writes me notes telling me how much he loves me.
13. Sometimes when people give me hugs.
14. When my friends care too much at just the "right" times.
15.  [Apparently] when people ask me to be bridesmaids in their wedding 
16. When people make me so angry I can't speak, I cry.
17. When people talk about my business like it has to do with them..
18. Sometimes when I just sit and think.
19. When I try really hard to make something work [friendships usually] and the other person just doesn't care..
20. Invitation time at church. Every time I think of someone I know who needs to be saved and how I wish they were there right then so they could get saved...in fact I'm about to start crying about it right now. 


I think 20 things is quite enough for you to know how sensitive I am.

b-b-b-b-b- benny and the jets!

Day 23: Something That Makes You Feel Better

Well, like all of these blogs, there are many things that make me feel better.

Hugs. [Good ones. Not stupid wimpy ones]
When someone is genuinely concerned about me, not because they want me to dish what's going on in my life so they can go tell someone else. But when they genuinely care.
Working out makes me feel a lot better!
Getting mail
Surprises [good ones, not bad ones]
Puppies!
Hoodie weather
The WIND!!!!
Good music
Water, like in pools, oceans, rivers
Bridges make me happy
Thinking about how I'm going to be in the Navy this time next year
Crying
When my football teams do well
When people love me.

That's all. Nothing else on the planet makes me feel better.

jk.
There's more but I'm distracted right now.

I Hit My Forearm On a Doorknob Earlier. OUCH.

Day 22: Something That Upsets You

Something that upsets me...a lot of things upset me.

When people are rude to me for no reason.
When people lie to me..I guess that would count as being rude but it's own category.
When people talk about my business like it's theirs. [should that be apostrophe s?]
Racism....ooooh that really burns my biscuits. I can't stand that people think just because someone is a different color than they are..or even just of a different social class that they're beneath them. It drives me crazy when I see that kind of ignorance. I want to scream at it.
When boys are idiotic.
When friends are idiotic.
When my mom asks me a bunch of questions [yes, mom it irritates me]
When people expect me to be psychic.
When someone says I did something I didn't do or didn't do something that I did do.
When people don't listen to what I'm saying.
When people do one thing and say another. Sometimes I'm guilty of this but I try really hard not to be.
When teachers expect entirely too much of you, like an unrealistic amount from you.
When someone says they'll do something and then they don't.
When people think they're cool because they do stupid things. Like getting drunk. That's never ever going to be cool. Ever.
When people make comments about my ability to play the oboe WHEN I'M SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM AND CAN HEAR EVERYTHING THEY'RE SAYING.
When people don't believe what I'm telling them.
When I can't find important things.
When my dogs don't listen.
When boys don't hold the door open for me when they clearly could have without going out of their way.
When people don't acknowledge you're being courteous by holding the door for them.
When people don't say "excuse me" they just plow on through or stand there and wait for you to notice them like you're covered in eyeballs so you can see everything all the time..or because you're psychic.
When people cut me off or pull out in front of me on the road.
When people don't use their turn signals.

There's more I'm sure..but you get the gist.

Jesus Loves Me This I Know

Day 21: Another Moment.

I've been thinking about this blog for the past few days. It's REALLY tough for me to pick out just one thing to write about when the topic is this huge. I thought I had one, but it wasn't gonna go anywhere, thought I had another...same thing. But as I was getting in the shower I thought of one. I think it will be good.

Today in wind ensemble, we weren't playing so I turned to my friend next to me.
Wait, let me back up. She's having a really rough time with a recent break up and some other stuff going on. Her ex said some pretty rude things.. She really needs to focus on who she is as a single woman and a child of God. She's asked me to pray for her, now I'm asking you. You can call her Abby, that's not her name but God will know who you're talking about.

Today in wind ensemble I turn to her and ask if she's figured out what she's gonna do when she grows up. She is getting a degree that you can't really do anything with so I was asking to see if she'd found out she's interested in anything.
Her reply: "I don't know, I haven't figured out if I'm even worth anything anymore."
This statement broke my heart completely. She started crying after that, which broke my heart even more.

At that moment I realized she needs love. All the love I can possibly give her. She needs it. I was speechless at that moment. All I could do was hug her but she didn't want it. She wouldn't have listened no matter what I'd said to her.

Pray for her, please. Pray for me, that I can find the words and actions that will show her the most love. I want Jesus' light to shine through me to her and I want her to feel His love, not only mine but His even more.

I love you all. :)

Eat Your Pickles.

Day 20: This Month


Well. It's only the 11th day of this month and so far it's been pretty crappy. It's been stressful and dramatic and I wouldn't be upset if it ended early. 
I'll try to focus on the good things...
This past weekend we beat the junk out of the other team at our homecoming game. Well I take that back..we only won by 13 points..but the score was 72-59...so yea lol.
I went to see You Again tonight with my best best friend and her roommate. It was good. Not as good as I expected but still good. 
I got makeupped. That was fun. :) Pictures to come, I'm sure. I don't have them but I'll get them.
I have friends and family who love me to pieces and will listen to me talk about the same thing over and over until I'm all talked out. :)
Today, the army in my math class discovered my existence...either that or I had a booger on my face or something..he kept looking at me. That made me smile.
I'm going home to sit a cow..not really a cow but it's a LARGE dog this weekend and I'm really excited.
I got to have dinner with my "twin" last night. It was great, I haven't talked to her in so long!
I might get to hang out with my long lost best guy friend this weekend...we'll see. I probably won't have gas. I haven't seen him since...uh..I have no idea when lol. I guess over the summer some time because it was warm..maybe May lol. Who knows.
The Ducks beat Washington State. :)
My roommate is the bomb.com. It's true, ask her.


That's all I can think of right now, sorry. It really has been a rough 2 weeks. 
Later...

Writing a Blog and Having An Argument Simultaneously Is Difficult.

Day 19: Something You Regret

Geez. These topics are sort of hard. I try not to regret anything...but there are a few, well really just one thing that I keep repeating.

I hate that I get emotionally attached to guys. It drives me crazy. If I find one even the slightest bit attractive we can't be friends. It just won't work. Well. I take that back. I can be friends with them..but if they flirt with me and make me believe they like me it's over. I just invest too much in them.
I love people and I care about them. I care about all of my friends but I seem to get more emotionally attached and ultimately hurt by my male ones.
It's my fault, I know it is. I'm not blaming them at all, it's not their fault..they're doing what guys do and what they'd do with any other girl.
It's my fault that I don't take what they say at face value. When they say "we're just friends" that's exactly what they mean. Even if they flirt and whatnot, in their head we're only going to be friends, end of story. But in my head I'm thinking "if I just be funny enough and show them I care enough then we'll be more, I know it." Nope...it's never..ever...happened that way.

This statement [about emotional attachment] is also true for the one guy I gave everything to. Not EVERYTHING...but emotionally, it was everything I had. That was one of the stupidest things I've ever done. He was exactly what I didn't need in my life but I didn't care. He adored me and I adored him and that's the way it was. I don't know if there was anything on Earth that could have stopped that train once it left the station. I do regret that.

I hope that by the time my husband gets here I'll have stopped this stupidity and have something to give to him.

I wish I didn't care so much for people, life would be easier if I was selfish twirp.

If You Like To Waltz With Potatoes...Up and Down the Produce AAAAAISLE!! :)

Day 18: Your Favorite Birthday


Well I don't really have a favorite..if you haven't noticed yet, I'm not good at this "pick a favorite ___" game. I'm an indecisive person when it comes to stuff like that.


I'll just tell you about birthdays that I remember and obviously made a lasting impression if I remember them. :)

5th [or 6th] birthday: I just wanna preface this by saying that sometimes I accidentally make up things..I'm pretty sure all of this went down the way I remember but it's quite possible it didn't...I mean, it was 16 years ago..


So anyway. We've been walking around the mall all day with my grandparents [we is me and my parents, my sister wasn't there that I know of] and I'm a crabby tired kid. So we walk into Claire's and my mom asks if I want to sit down for a moment. In that tall chair!? OF COURSE I do! So I hop up there and everyone leaves me be...then someone comes back..I don't remember which family member, I think it was my mom but it may not have been..anyway..she says "These 2 ladies are going to measure your ears" I'm sure there was more to the story because I don't think it I was THAT gullible..but I guess ya never know. Anyway..so I say ok whatever. They each put a dot on one ear and then they say "Ok, we're going to measure them on 3, ready? 1.....2....3.." BAM! THEY SHOT ME!!! I couldn't believe it! I screamed [I think] I was mortified! I remember exactly what they look like too! It was crazy.

13th Birthday...I think: I GOT TO HAVE A SLEEPOVER! Several of my friends came and it was grand. :) we stayed up late and played all sorts of games. :)

16th Birthday: WAS IN MEXICO!! on a missions trip. :) They had a cake for me and everything..apparently when we had gone to Wal-Mart a few days earlier they'd picked it up and I didn't even know about it. It was a surprise and it made me cry. 
I also had a fight with my best friend that night. I don't remember exactly how it happened. I remember talking on the phone to my mom outside of the church and crying. I think that she had probably ignored me all day long because her [then] fiance..maybe they were just bf/gf..they later got engaged but didn't get married..that's a story for another time. Anyway. I remember laying in the bed with her that night [we shared a room/bed] and telling her how what she was doing was making me feel. How before we left she said that they weren't going to kiss or hug or touch or any of that before they were married..then the whole way down there they were cuddly. And he kissed her head several times, I saw him but she didn't believe me. She said he was just smelling her hair..how would she know? She was ASLEEP. I told her that night that I didn't think they would get married, I just didn't see them together and he didn't treat her like he should have been treating. He didn't treat her bad..just not the way he said he would. That was a rough birthday.
BUT then when I got home we celebrated as a family!!
We went out to eat at Chili's, then to Applebee's for dessert. On our way home Momma said she had to use the bathroom..at first I thought "really? you can't make it 30 more minutes?" but when momma has to go she's got to now. So she told my dad to pull over at the bowling alley around the corner. She got out of the car. I said "I don't have to go, I'll just stay here" my dad said "ok" and my mom said "no, get out of the car." This went on for a few minutes until she finally got me out. I sulked in and stood in front of the bathroom for probably 5 minutes..when they didn't come out I decided I was going to go in. So I did...there was NO ONE in there. So I thought "well while I'm here I may as well go" so I sat down on the toilet and all the sudden I hear my first best friend [the one I've had since I was 2] singing happy birthday..and I was like WHAT THE HECK!?! She tricked me...it was surprise party. It was Christina [my 1st best friend], her family and bf [whom she's now married to], her family and my previously mentioned best friend. I guess my other friends were too busy...oh well. So we bowled and ate cake. It was fun.

18th Birthday: I WAS IN FRANCE!! That should speak for itself lol. That day we went to Mont Marte and shopped the streets. My 2 best friends bought me yellow shoes with stars on them! I still have them, I don't wear them anymore because 1. they make my feet stink and 2. I don't want them to break. That night we went to the restaurant we'd gone to every other night we were in France. Sam [or Anna, I don't remember which one] was supposed to get me to go to the bathroom when someone gave her the signal. When we came back from the bathroom they were supposed to sing to me...well apparently the signal never came so she just took it upon herself to take me in her own time lol. Again, I didn't really have to use the bathroom...I was forced to go lol. When we came back we just sat down..eventually they brought out a yummy dessert and sang to me. :) It was great!

21st Birthday: Obviously I remember this one because it just happened lol. We went out to eat at the Cheesecake Factory!! It was sooo good. :) Then we went to see the movie Grown-Ups. It was good too. :) For my birthday I got TICKETS TO SEE THE MARINERS PLAY!!! I was soooooo excited! The game was great! Daddy and I had a lot of fun!!!! :)

Well. That's all. If I've left anything important out, mother, I apologize.

I'm Thirsty.

I'm combining days 16 and 17 in one blog. 


Day 16: Your First Kiss.


It's January 2, 2009. I'm wearing a black turtleneck with a purple cami, my 2nd favorite pair of jeans [that I just fit into again the other day!], black dress shoes and a white jacket I got from my Aunt Leslie for Christmas 8 days before. My hair is curly and sort of out of control. :)
Have a looksee:

Jennifer picks me up, we go pick up Sam. Then we go pick HIM up. I get out of the car and greet him at his door...he's lookin fine. :) We get in the car and head to Nashville. We park in the parking garage Jennifer uses for work. I don't really remember where we went first, we just sort of wondered around. We eventually made it to the Observation Tower..many people don't know about this place apparently..it's pretty cool. I'd never go back but you should go. Anyway...we go up and we're looking around. I get on this block thing, it's like a decoration, I'm not really sure...he gets up there with me and we're looking at the stars and the city. Beautiful. All of the sudden Sam and Jennifer have disappeared and it's just the 2 of us left up there. Well. He looks at me and says "so when would be the perfect time to kiss someone?" and I said "uh...I don't know..you tell me." Apparently that was the right time because he went for it. Of course I have NO idea what to do..so I'm just trying to do what he does...THEN. He stuck his tongue in my mouth! I was like WHOOOOA this is strange. To this day I can remember every thought that was going through my head, every sensation running through my body, the feeling I had in my stomach and the tingling in my arms. Well, while we're doing our thing Jennifer calls me and tells me there's a guy at the bottom locking the gates and we're gonna be stuck up there. So we run down. 

Of course Jennifer and Sam wanna know what happened. So he sits on a bench and we go off and take "pictures"...like these..

she's weird. Anyway. So we go get him and walk around some more. We go to the walking bridge..oh it's beautiful..and walk down near the stadium and onto the train tracks where we took this picture:

We wondered to the Batman Building and just around town. It was nice. Then we headed back to the parking garage. Before we left town we took one last picture:

I look so stinkin happy..and I was. I had dreamed of that night for sometime...I knew for almost 4 years that I wanted him to be my first kiss. I don't regret it. If I had it to do over I think I'd probably do some things differently, but not that one..

Well. That's really all of that story. 

Day 17: Your Favorite Memory

This is a really hard one...especially after telling that story lol. I have so many memories to choose from. 

Like the time my dad and grandpa stood outside in the Illinois winter with me and threw the football because that's what I had asked for for Christmas.

Or soooo many memories of band trips. Man oh man. I could talk for years about those. Probably one of the most memorable is when I met [really met, but had semi-known already] the 1st boy that told me he loved me..of course he lied. Whatever. That was interesting football game.... If you ask me about the story, I'll tell you but it's too long for this blog.

I could talk about trips to Illinois..twice a year with the entire family in tow. Well maybe once a year with the WHOLE family. 

Or my uncle's funeral when my sister and I rapped the ABC's because we were so bored at the SEVEN HOUR visitation.

Or any time we visited family in Wisconsin: the time I fell out of the tree, the time I went with my cousin to softball practice and her friend said I could eat her starbursts then made fun of the way I said mosquito, the time I ate a brandied cherry, the time my sister choked on pizza cheese, the time we visited my aunt and uncle's farms and sled down HUGE piles of snow, the time my grandmother's neighbor, my sister and I found a dead frog in the road and cut it open with some scissors, the time we had a family softball game in the backyard of grandma's house...the list goes on.

I could tell you about the time my mom tried to set me up with a southern gospel singer...that was an adventure..

Or the time I got to eat biscuits and drink tea with sugar cubes in 2nd grade because I had missed and they'd had "Be British Day" while I was gone, or when I wrote a story about London and made it into a book, or when I wrote a poem about a spider and it got published

I could tell about when I went home with my 1st grade teacher and watched her brush her teeth then went to see the singing Christmas Tree at her church. I loved her, she was so cool, or the time I cut my hair in her class because I saw another girl do it.

Or any memory I've made with my roommate and college friends.

I have so many good memories. More good ones than bad and I'm so thankful for that. 

I can't wait to meet new people and make more!! :)

Well until tomorrow. :) 

God's Buildin a Church!

Day 15: Your Dreams

Geez..it took me long enough to get to this stinkin page...so anyway my dreams.

Well. My dream dreams like what happens when I sleep are usually pretty wild...
Sometimes people don't even look the same AT ALL but I just know it's them. It's so weird. Same thing with places.
I have this one dream that when it starts I know exactly what's going to happen, in fact I commentate in my head and tell myself what's going on. Sometimes I can avoid it if it's something bad but most times I just have to prepare myself...it's really strange.
And I have this other one that occurs when I get stressed but it's a continuation..like I can't tell you what the dream is right now but I know as soon as it starts that it's a continuation from one maybe a year before..it's also strange.


My goal dreams...
I want to be in the Navy. I WILL be in the Navy.
I want to be a mechanic eventually.
I want to be a foster parent.
I want to help at risk youth.
I want to live in a big city.
I want to spread the love of Jesus Christ everywhere I go.
I want to love the "unloveable."
I want to sky dive.
I want to parasail<--that's spelled incorrectly, I know.
I want to travel the world.
I want to see the Redwoods.
I want to break records.
I want people to look up to me.
I want to marry my best friend [probably not the one I have now...]
I want to influence people.
I want so much more than I could ever express to you in a blog..

I hope this shows you what kind of person I am. I've noticed lately that I've gotten pickier with the people I enjoy...I'd rather not be this way. I'm trying to work on that.

Tomorrow's may be a little late..like the day after tomorrow late lol. I won't be around a computer long enough to write about it. :) So you'll receive 2 on Friday most likely. :)

I'm Gonna Go Put Mousse in My Hair.

Day 14: What You Wore Today.

Seriously? Again. Alright..

Well since it's Tie-Dye Tuesday, naturally I wore a hand-dyed tie dyed shirt. :) It says New York City on it and has a little taxi cab. It's pretty cute. :)

You say "Where did you get that shirt"
I respond "GOOOOODWILL!" :) haha no really. In fact I'm pretty sure I got it like the weekend after I got back from NYC. :) It was half off so DUH I bought it.

I wore jeans, pink socks and tennis shoes.

This morning as I was searching for shoes to wear I realized I have a billion pairs of flip flops and one pair of tennis shoes. I wouldn't mind so much if it weren't getting cold and my feet didn't stink. I have cowboy boots and rain boots also..these are the only 3 pairs of shoes I have to keep my feet warm this winter. I guess it could be worse, right?

I hate "what you wore today" days...they're lame. I hope tomorrow is a better one.

WhoaAAA WhoooOOOOOaaa

Day 13: This Week

Well. It's only day 2 of this week..so this post is probably going to be even less interesting than the last.

Day one of this week:
Got up.
Got dressed.
Went to church.
Learned about ideals in Sunday School.
I can't remember what the sermon was about, I remember it was good though.
Went home.
Ate lunch.
Met the 184 lb English Mastiff I'll be dogsitting in 2 weeks.
Watched tv.
Folded clothes.
Packed previously mentioned clothes.
Went to church.
Fellowshipped with good friends at "eat after church" time.
Drove back.
Did NOT get air for my tires...
Truck shut off in the middle of the road.
Couldn't find the power steering fluid.
Boys looked for like 5 minutes then found it.
Found out I was completely out of power steering fluid...great.
Buy power steering fluid.
Can't get the bottle down in the crevice to pour it in.
Get paper funnel from cashier.
Success.
Drive back to Murray.
Futz around on the internet.
Go to bed.

Day 2.
Arise [only after hitting snooze twice].
Get dressed.
See that my hair looks marvelous and I'm just not sure why..
Go to prayer.
Pray.
Go to breakfast.
Eat.
Practice my oboe.
Work in the band office.
Go to math class.
Learn Math.
Go to history.
Learn history, doodle, get sun burnt..ya know the norm.
Go to lunch.
Eat.
Go to wind ensemble.
Play.
Work some more.
SEE KATIE GRAVES!!!
Tell her my story..it should have taken maybe 15 minutes..it took an hour and 15....
Find out that "doodling" is not in t9 [texting language] but the word "fondling" will gladly take its place...
Leave work.
Come back to my room.
Email Progressive.
Start blog.
Watch Megan unpack.
Work out.
Get promised food but promise is not delivered upon until 45 minutes later.
Go to Megan's boyfriend's house.
Watch The Guardian [so good!]
Cry..of course.
Leave.
Take shower on the OTHER end of the hall...this is a big deal because I've never done it before, in all my 3 years in this dorm I've only showered on this one side!! Ha!
Finish blog.
Go to bed shortly after.

Hope this kept you entertained for a good 5 minutes, though I'm not holding my breath..

I'm Not Afraid.

Day 12: What's in Your Bag?

Well. I don't usually carry a bag.
I carry my handy dandy all-in-one thingamadoogie.

Its got cards, licenses [yes, plural], my id, money, bracelets, keys, usually my cell phone, random business cards.
Nothing too exciting.

This blog felt pointless.
I should have changed what to write about.
Oh well.

I realized tonight that I don't enjoy driving back to Murray alone. I enjoy SOME quiet and alone time but 2 straight hours is just too much for me! :(
I like people, I like talking to people...as long as they aren't driving me completely insane. :)

Later.

Cause You're Amazing Just The Way You Are

Day 11: Your Siblings

I should start off by saying that I would post a picture of her beautiful face but 1. I don't want you all to be jealous and 2. I'm at home with dial up internet and it'd be more trouble than it's worth.

Well. You already know she's beautiful because I just told you.
She was named after 2 country music singers from the 90s....possibly 80s too but I was only around for 5 months of that decade so I wouldn't know.
She's going to college for instrumental performance..she wants to play in a symphony.
She loves Jesus a whooooole lot.
She's the best darn sister I've ever had.
Sometimes she's crazy and it bugs me but I get over it because I love her.
Sometimes she doesn't always get what's going on as quick as everyone else..that sometimes bugs me too but I get over it.
She loves college. I knew she would.
She also likes poetry and long walks on the beach haha jk I just made that up.
She's very supportive of me and I'm very thankful of her.
She's listened to me talk about guys for..well as long as she could hold more than a 30 second attention span I guess.
I'm convinced she was adopted..she's convinced she was switched at birth..Momma denies both of these accusations...
She just got a cell phone. She didn't really want one but I think Momma made her get one.

That's all I can think of right now. It's been a REALLY long week and I'm tired.

I love her. That's all you really need to know.

Kick Ball Change Kick Ball Change [these are dance moves, not sports plays]

Day 10: What You Wore Today

This topic should be tomorrow cuz I be lookin flyyyy! hahahahaha :)

Ok..so I wore a Cubs t-shirt. No, I'm not a fan but it was made in 1988..which makes it FLY AND my grandfather gave it to me and I love him. :)

My jeans came from Goodwill..they're COMFORTABLE and they fit me gooood...for now.

On my feet, I wore flip flops.

Then I wore work out clothes...to work out in. [yes I  know that sentence is grammatically incorrect but whoopdeedoo]

That's all. I feel like this blog lacks something..like length, depth, width...any other words that end in th.. :)

Hm...what else can I talk about?

I could talk about how the person who was supposed to be my best friend in high school no longer talks to me..but I won't.
Or how her sister is a better friend to me than she is..but I won't talk about that either.

Hm. I'm kind of in a strange mood tonight.
Tomorrow I'm going with a friend to get her a tattoo! I almost hope it's buy one get one free day and she lets me get a free one LOL!! hahahaha [I'm sure my mother just had a heart attack lol]. I know exactly what I want and where. :) Hahah. This is highly unlikely of course. But a girl can dream. :)

Well. I'm not in a ramblin' mood tonight so it's just not coming to me...I'm sorry this one is lame. The others will be better. :)